Today I have pondered on what the Dr has said to me.  She has not said much about diet yet, but we are going to talk about it Wednesday.  I have been trying to watch my sugars, trying, its hard, but technically its easier than before when I just wanted to lose weight!  Go figure.  When it is a necessity it comes easier.   

I researched one of the drugs that Kristine said that I "most likely" will be on.   It's more disheartening than when I found out I was going to have a C-section!  And that was really the last thing I wanted to do when having my first and possibly only child.  So, its called Byetta, said Bi-ay-ta.  And apparently what I thought was a new pill is actually an injectible drug.  That means that I am going to be insulin dependant.  Not the first thing that I expected to be doing as a newly diagnosed diabetic.   

I guess you pray long enough and hard enough to lose weight and God provides an option.  Not the option I was hoping for, but his will is what I will be doing.  Don't get me wrong I never prayed that divine intervention would take over and *POOF* Skinny, but I prayed for the strength and the will power to have the ability to lose weight.  Little did I know he said diabetes will give her the strength to say no to sweets, goodies, and candy.  It really is a little funny!   You ask and you shall receive. 

Hmmmm.....maybe next time I ask for something I will make a plan, lay it all out on paper, get a presentation together......THEN pray in a manner suitable for me.  lol.   Today I make of it what I can. 

SMILE

:D 

New Chapter

           

          So, on December 20th, I found out that I am diabetic.  It's called Diabetes.  Everyone knows this but it is strange to say it.  "I have Diabetes!"  For me it is easier and less real to say "I am diabetic."  I am not sure why, or the reason, but it just suites me better that way.   I was not told a whole lot yet.  I was put on glucophage, one pill a day for seven days, then two pills a day for, well...until I am told to do something different! 

          In my new journey, I decided that I will write down my feelings and thoughts. Today is the second day I started the two pills a day.  They said it would have side affects....lol, side affects, right?!?!?!   I had not had said side affects, yet.  So, I decided to go to Dollar Tree.   Just when you don't expect the "side affects" to happen, they do!   I had to stand in an aisle until the urge had left me and told my husband my tummy was not under control, and the best part.....I was not sure it would get under control.   The only problem was that it happened three times at the store.  Luckily, my husband new about the restrooms that were available to customers.  

         After all was said and done, I have learned my lesson(s).    1. Don't underestimate the almighty SIDE AFFECT,  2. I am still not sure what I am doing with my diabetes,   and 3. I just wing it.....for now. 

I will learn what I am supposed to do and follow all my orders, but until then I am trying to stay away from sugar, and I am trying to cut back on my starches.   For someone who LOVES sugar, and goodies, I was a good girl today and went to a childs Birthday party and did not have cake or ice cream!  I was very proud of myself.  I almost broke my arm patting myself on the back! DOH!  Then the pinata came....they key to Tritan's undoing.   Well, I did not gorge myself on candy, but I did savor one lovely, smooth, delectable Tootsie Roll.   It was heaven in a little piece of plasticky chocolate.  

          I move on to the next day.  But my blood sugars look better now than they did last week.  Of course last week I checked them after a meal and this week is before breakfast and before dinner.  We will see how things go.  Hopefully better than they have as my body has been coping for who knows how long.